Fresh Water:
Why does water taste better out of the bathroom faucet? It tastes more fresh, more cold, and that's not right!!!! The kitchen water should taste better, but it just doesn't hold a candle.
Graceful Science:
The human body is amazing. All the sensations it can experience, all the mysteries of our bodies that are attuned to the universal heart...the way bodies send off radar in the form of hormonal/ pheromonal output is awesome, people each have their own unique scent. You can have five women all using the same perfume, yet it smells differently on each of them. (same with men, but with cologne of course!)...this is the delicate natural science part that is the most beautiful. The way eye colors change depending on mood or color of clothing. I had blue eyes till I was about 12 or so, then boom! Green eyes. When I cry they look somewhat turqouise, and people have even thought my eyes were brown before. I enjoy looking into the eyes of people. You can find so much there.
Unfortunately there are other things about the human body that aren't too pleasant, but they are necessary. "Bathroom" related stuff isn't part of the beautiful side for me, but there can be (if attempted) a graceful science to it all. To be graceful in these matters a person needs to understand and respect those who are around them. Remember that there are others in the same room before you let the gas out. Remember that pushing that hard, can give you hemroids, make you come across like an ogre-brute, and none of that is attractive. Even if some people think it is funny, it isn't Hot! And also spare the period-talk/ birthing stories for times when it's just the girls and when no one is eating.
This makes guys feel so weird and grossed out too. I was joking around the other day with the guys and really grossing them out about period atrocities (good thing I was just kidding), but even so it was really gross to them. So guys and gals, please have a mutual respect on this issue, Guys: Don't do the "covered wagon" to your lady, and Ladies don't "cover them with the bloody details" or force them to watch you give birth to their child. My friend and I have talked about this before, and after they see the birthing process, I'm not sure that they ever see your triangle of love the same way again.
And couples: don't dump together!!!! Yuck.
Clutter Control:
Each month I literally give about two black garbage bags full of stuff away to the Goodwill. What happens then? I keep finding more stuff that doesn't fit into my life anymore and out with it again. I'd like to get rid of most of my clothes and keep only 14 shirts, 7 pants, and three jackets. I'm tired of all the clothes, most of them I don't wear because they aren't my style. I want to free up my life, be the kind of girl who could move in a matter of hours, not days.
Societal Norms:
Society is fabulous, provides a place to belong and contribute. But alas, there are all types of societies, so when people say "Fuck Society" it is best to ask that person "Which Society are you referring to?"....Because I say Fuck Conventional Society. I say screw people telling me how I need to construct and arrange my day, and giving me a timeline to live by. I can follow rules and laws, respect people, and hold a job. That isn't a problem. It becomes a problem when strangers belonging to the same society give you a free ticket to a guilt trip they are hosting in your honor. Spare me the judgements about how I run the private parts of my life. In the words of Modest Mouse, 'Opinions are like kittens, always giving them away'....
I don't know if I want the American Dream or not... I've thought about it, but it doesn't feel right. It isn't my dream. I don't want to say no to living and doing things because I've got my leg shackled to a box (house) of shit that I still have the rest of my life to pay off. I don't want to become old and say "I wish I could've gone there, but there just wasn't enough time or money or motivation". I could be happy just being with the people I love, enjoying the simplicity of the days stretched out with joy, learning to love the seasons again, living passionately and without apologizing for who I am and what I want. It is far easier to write these things out, but to jump across the bridge and find your opportunity waiting for you with open arms is a far more difficult of a task.
People act like this life is just for practice and they act like they were just forced upon the earth without any purpose. Everybody matters to someone, some purpose, some thought. Have as much fun as possible and learn as much as possible on your way to finding out where your niche is. And believe me, you know without a doubt when you find your purpose. It feels huge, warm, bright, all encompassing. It changes everything for you and shapes you in ways you never could have imagined. Purpose doesn't subtly creep up on someone unnoticed and without impact, if you are getting that feeling from your "purpose", then it isn't really your purpose (it is special maybe, important in it's own way, but not your purpose.)
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